Sunday, November 23, 2008
Jian Hao! I'm updating! Watch this. Haha.
Alright, this post is very special. Read it on and you'll understand..
Notice the first track of the song? It's always what i wish to hear. And for this very special song, it reminds me of the whole childhood life that I had. A deplorable one. Living in a place where daily life of mine are filled with heartbreaking matters. Maybe that's what everyone had to experience especially in Singapore. Relating from family to friends, there were countless matters contributed to it. Sometimes, I'm really puzzled as to what god had given me. A sense of protection where danger are plotted. This was just what I felt then. I was often being bullied, however, I'm well protected I would say by my elder brother as well as my teacher/s(can't remember how many). I don't know why at that time people were so afraid of my brother. Oh yes, he was a prefect. Ha, but he supported the "bad" side at times where logic doesn't flow. All this bad happenings happened when I was in primary school. Later on in my life in primary five, I met this best friend of mine named Arwinder. He changed my life, and again, he's the one who protected me from everything. Sometimes, I feel like thanking god. But sometimes, I really don't understand why are certain things happening to me. For instance, when one great buddy of mine left, I met another one instantly. However, from this many best friends that came and left.. I'd learnt priceless lessons from them which I valued it a lot. The reason for why they left my life was because they had moved to foreign countries. Once I entered secondary school, I told myself: I'm not going to have another buddy leaving my side if I ever met one. Cool enough, I met this very good buddy of mine when I was in secondary two. I was glad that I didn't fall to normal academic that fate allowed me such friend to enter this very life of mine. Not to mention his name is Brainer. We hanged out almost everyday after school. I still remembered one very vivid moment spent, he asked me to do a somersault. Given a timid personality, I had tell myself no. Amazingly, I guess he knew that's going to be my answer and he said, "Come on, there's noone here to look at you." We were at the playground then. Without much hesitation I just give it a try and I was like, wow! Ha, that's when I discovered that I need to unleash my potential of what I can do. For this simple thing which I'd realized, made me known of where my interest lies.. MUSIC! However, this friend of mine.. good enough, he remained in Singapore. But his schedule is always so pack. And I started to be unreasonable I guess.. but one thing I'm glad of was that that didn't bother him. He's still a good friend of mine as ever. And so this friend left me as we were deployed to different class when secondary 3 life began. From there, I met another buddy. He's just a classmate of mine. We are never close just that most of the time we do things together in class and people thought we regard one another as best friends. But I will say that sometimes he's more than a classmate. He listens to my problem and gave me possible advice which later I tried and indeed solve my problems for me. He makes me feel that that's the friendship that I must cherish. And I tried. Of course, now he's a good friend of mine, and he is Ka Jun. We seldom contact. In the midst of this classmate-ship that I'd made, that's when I met Jeremy, Valarie and Daron.This 3 people are the real lasting siblings ship that i've ever met even up till now. Our relationship blossom real fast to the extend I don't think you'll believe it. It's ever since we met. Ha, since we are still together, I shall continue to keep our data confidential. And when I came into polytechnic, I can't remember who's the first friend I made. But the one which I'm closest to is Weiyu and Amos.. Hafiz, erm.. not sure :P haha. For Amos, he is just like that another Ka Jun which I'd made. Yupz, personality and almost anything quite similar to Ka Jun. Except that, Ka Jun is more intelligent yet quite street-smart I guess. Weiyu, another one which had a real fast friendship blossoom also, but a real fast friendship broke. The only thing which I'd vivid memory about him was that he always tries to cheer up the conversation while I'm always trying to make it dull. I thought he's a very social guy so I tested him to see if there's any personality that I can copy. Yes, I do copy personality for many of you who doesn't know me well. But for good intention only. Another thing which stayed in my mind unforgetable was that he said I always gave him a very angry tone. I'm not too sure about that. But he's one friend whereby I hope will not step out of my life but many things happened. After all the trouble, I hope things can run like how it was in first semester at least. But things changed, according to him, he said his girlfriend hope that he won't be close to me. It really puzzled me as the last time I ever chatted with her girl, she said she's fine with it. Well, I'm really uncertain of the current situation. And since I'm not given any chance to speak to him.. just hope that by any chance he read my blog: "Giving your lady your heart it's what a real man should do, giving her your mind.. is really stupid. This is your life, not your lady's life. Many people would say, a heart can't work without a mind and vice versa. Do you get what it mean? That's what life is I thought. heart + mind = life. You just following blindly by what you feel, at certain point of time you have to think!. I hope you really know what you're saying that your girlfriend don't wish that. Unless you're the one who hate this friendship, by all means, the door is open wide enough for you to walk out of my life." Nonetheless, I hope he'll remember one thing: The life is yours! Not your friend, not your lady, not even your parent! IT IS YOURS!. Later on in life, which is currently. A good friend made in band. Edward. We were being taught by the same conductor in secondary school amazingly. And now the both of us were thinking of possible ways to merge 2 secondary school alumni band which is not form yet. And of course not forgetting my third wife Faiezah. The one who always makes me feel that moral support that no other people can give. Jia hui also of course. Jia hui, really thank you for all the listening ears of yours.
For anybody whom I'd forget to mention, may I kindly seek your understanding. It's either that I forgotton as too many people to remember. But those names mentioned above are those who play/ed an important role in my life that I'll never forget.
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Teo Jian Hao Leonard
09 Feb 1990
| You Are More Yang |
Masculine Creative Angry Spring Summer Morning Sun Space Active Wood Chocolate |
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Your Kissing Purity Score: 80% Pure |
You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed |
| Your Love Type: INFP |
The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ |
| You Should Be A Cancer |
What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese |
e rest find out urself..bleahx!
