Wednesday, November 5, 2008
I'm blogging..
Driving. Yes, another driving lesson. I started off well, but ended it badly. I managed to change gear smoothly but it was then when the sky got darker, I have to be more alert. There's so many things to take note off like the side mirrors and operating the car at the same time without looking at any of the operation tools. For this second lesson, I drove on the.. highway I guess? it was all straight roads with no traffic lights. Easy. However, I was confuse with changing to the 4th or 2nd gear. Both positions seem so alike! Again, after the whole thing ended, I had jelly legs again. I guess I know what causes the jelly-ness, my legs were too tired.
Valarie & Daron. The both of you had gone to Cambodia, I hope both of you come back soon. Daron, I miss your phone calls. Valarie, I miss your availability for me. I'm so sorry that I promised to see you off on Sunday morning 4am but I missed it. I had overslept by accident. I woke up at 5.40+ am n I was like,"Oh shit!". Following after was an sms from Daron's mum saying that she's somewhere near my house already. It was at 3.40 on the dot that her mum text me and I was still sleeping then. If only she called, I would have woke up. Anyway, I hope that I can get to you guys asap this Sunday.
Dyla. She's a colleague of mine from Bakerzin. I'd understand that she don't come from a wealthy family, but I hope that she understand that I'm not either. Seeing a friend in need is a friend indeed. That's the role that I wish to play. But it seems like she abused it. Given my soft heart, I couldn't decide if I should still lend her the money. Following after, consulted Amos and my mum. Both of them said almost the same thing to me. Well, I just abide by the decision made and proceed on with the reply to her that I'm not able to lend her so. I hope she understand. Sometimes I really wonder if she's making excuses. Well, stories which she actually came out with was she stuck in Orchard Road, etc. I thought that was a bad way of excuses. And I really, really wonder.. will she return me what she owe? If she doesn't, I'm fine with it actually so long as she don't suffer under the fate of money. That's what I'm afraid most for the people around me.
Me. I've been very exhausted, as usual I guess? There were moments which I forced myself into a good day. Now, for the same people that I used to stay worried, happy, etc, they are still the same to me. Nothing's change. Is that a good thing? There were too many times that I admited that I'm jealous of, looking at my friends one by one.. seems to enjoying luxury. But whether they suffer on another surface of life, I'm not too sure about it. This was just what it seem to me. Well, I hope they are really enjoying it. I had personally enjoyed before being in the luxurious feel than the current life but I thought that it wasn't good. Because it's easy for me to adapt to that life. Months later, I find that my state of life is deploring and I need something to change me. It took a really long time for me to get better. Well, I'm glad and I hope I'm not living with too low nor too high standards but somewhere in the middle where I can share my good things with. My brother and some of my friends actually said my money seem to be flowing endlessly. Like I said, the reason behind was because I hope certain people deserve the happiness from me for if I took out my money without bothering. Ah, just too many things to say.. and I've not done my research. I guess that's all for the moment. Thanks for the read through anyway;)
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Teo Jian Hao Leonard
09 Feb 1990
| You Are More Yang |
Masculine Creative Angry Spring Summer Morning Sun Space Active Wood Chocolate |
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Your Kissing Purity Score: 80% Pure |
You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed |
| Your Love Type: INFP |
The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ |
| You Should Be A Cancer |
What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese |
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